My Opinion about your Life

Assumptions:

I am a human.

I know myself, by myself I mean the "real" me

I have all my five senses in working positions and I am not numb.

Talking about others is always as easy as to open a tap and I considered opening a tap as an easy task because you don’t have to apply the force you don’t even have to use your arm it just needs a twist of your wrist and to know yourself “THE” real you, is like to discover the new horizons or you can say it’s like balancing an egg on a marble floor. Alas! I wish; you can understand what I mean but you don’t and neither do I wish now…

From the grade 1, I have been writing essays almost in every grade on ‘MY SELF’. But now I can just laugh on my essays, my statements, my immature writings, my childish thoughts, my improper way of expressing and totally random movements of my pen. But now when I was asked to write about my self I find myself at a fix, at a place where there is no way out… A street, infect a dark street with an opening, it seems that the open side is just a step away and when I take that step, the distance, instead of decreasing; it increases. And behind me; I find the world full of people… they are people, not human… you know the difference between people and humans? If not then I am not interested to tell you that because you belongs to people and is not a human.

Coming back to the topic, in that street behind me I find all my family members and friends everyone to whom I ever attach with, but they are not allowing me to get to that light at the end of the street, they are not helping me out.

When I think about myself and my life I find myself in that street with no light in it but the ending… gradually I leave myself numb and stationary like a rock... cant feel and unmovable without outer help.

But the time never stops for anyone… it didn’t stop for prophets; I am nothing but an ordinary one so why would it wait for me…

And that street is like a green mile to me… at times it takes a second to pass and sometimes green mile just takes so long…

Now when I am big… by big I mean, I am not a teenager anymore… I can take my decisions, I can do whatever I want, I can wear whatever I want… I can eat whatever I want… I can go out with anyone I want… I mean I can do anything I want… but there’s a problem I often face, that these things are not in my control. I have said a lot of whatever lately but my life is not in my control, I have no decision powers. Someone is taking decisions at my behalf; good or bad just don’t talk about them right now… some things are better to be left unsaid…

I see a face in that light, not recognizing it; but a feeling of a face, of my very own… people behind me are asking me to not go there but I want to go there and to find the truth by myself but I am confuse I trust the both ends… I don’t know what should I do and where should I go? On whom should I trust and on whom I shouldn’t…

I have 3 siblings. Everyone loves me and I love them too… I wasn’t very special but I always tried to make people happy… people ask me to leave the fantasies I am living in... But I don’t want to leave my world. I want to make my own world… I am ready to do anything for them but I just want to keep my world as I like…

I am not a pessimist but that’s the feeling I have received yet. I also want to be an optimist if the world and the humans in it will allow me to be one.

I am not talking Persian, but I still wonder why people don’t understand me. I try to be as simple as I can be but the people say I am psychic. I know I am not the best but I am not asking world to give me the best but at least try to give me what I deserve good or bad... Just give it to me… just give me my world back…

25 Random Thoughts

I wasn’t a premature baby boy but I am a premature elder, I am alive today just making life hell for others.

2. I had always wanted to be a serial killer but ended up in a finance school. Sigh!

3. While writing, I hold my pen/pencil in a weird way and it kind of annoys people.

4. I usually sleep with earphones in my ears just because I am too lazy to take them out before I sleep.

5. I want to kill a Chinese for their so wide opened eyes: D

6. In 9th grade, I was threatened by my principle to be kicked out of the school for something I was and still am proud of. ;)

7. I am always laughing like maniacs without any reason. It’s hard for others to figure out when I am crying and when I am laughing!

8. I talk a lot and you can call me a WINDBAG!

9. My greatest phobia is myself. You can murder me by just putting a dozen of mirrors in my room, I'll pass out and die, don't do that! It’s cruel! PLZ I beg

10. Who was my first crush; I don’t really remember but I hate YOU!

11. RAZA is my middle name that I got it from my father.

12. If I like a song, I listen to it till I feel like insane and people around me feel like strangling me to death BUT even this all can’t stop me.

13. I seldom studied yet I managed to get through my high school with good grades. My cousins used to think I study 24/7 and it drove my mum crazy because after all she knew the TRUTH!

14. I am living under the delusion that I know everything.

15. I hate slow-walking people and I feel like punching and kicking their backs while walking.

16. I am too much into my boyfriends.

17. I have an enormous appetite but I never seem to put an ounce of weight.

18. I love BLACK color like anything.

19. I hate gold. Yes, I do! I will give you a Silver Ring my engagement J I know it’s weird but that’s the way I am.

20. I am a perfectionist, to an extent of irritating others. I hate mediocre and this is one reason I don't work with people because anything less than perfect turns me off big time.

21. I don't want to get married; if it’s a compulsion to marry one girl: D

22. I pretend not knowing what I know so that I don't end up making people feel bad and I pity such people.

23. I show to the world only what I choose to.

24. I am a LIAR and you can never tell if I am lying or not. I'm really good at it.

25. It really annoys me when people spell LOSER with a double "o". It’s LOSER and not LOOSER Bloody losers

26. I love my family the most, my friends and You J Fattie :P

27. I wrote 27 points just because I was told to write 25 just to show how efficient am I with the writing skills: D.

The expensive cars (list)

Bugatti Veyron $1,700,000
The Bugatti Veyron 16.4 is the most powerful, most expensive, and fastest street-legal production car in the world, with a proven top speed of over 400 km/h (407 km/h or 253 mph). It reached full production in September 2005.

Ferrari Enzo $1,000,000
The Enzo Ferrari, sometimes referred to as the the Ferrari Enzo and also F60 is a 12-cylinder Ferrari supercar named after the company's founder, Enzo Ferrari. It was built in 2003 using Formula One technology,

Pagani Zonda C12 F $741,000
The Zonda C12 F debuted at the 2005 Geneva Motor Show. It is the most extensive reengineering of the Pagani car yet, though it shares much with its predecessors including the 7.3 L V12. Power is increased to 602 PS (443 kW/594 hp) with a special clubsport model producing 650 PS (478 kW/641 hp).

Koenigsegg CCX $600,910
The Koenigsegg CCX is the latest supercar from Koenigsegg. CCX is an abbreviation for Competition Coupe X. The X commemorates the 10th anniversary of the completion and test drive of the first CC vehicle in 1996.

Porsche Carrera GT $484,000
The Porsche Carrera GT is a supercar, manufactured by Porsche of Germany. The Carrera GT is powered by an all-new 5.7 litre V10 engine producing 612 SAE horsepower (450 kW). Porsche claims it will accelerate from 0 to 100 km/h (62.5 mph) in 3.9 seconds and has a maximum speed of 330 km/h (206 mph),

Mercedes SLR McLaren $455,500
The Mercedes-Benz SLR McLaren is a sports car and supercar automobile co-developed by DaimlerChrysler and McLaren Cars. It is assembled at the McLaren Technology Centre in Woking, England. Most people presume "SLR" to stand for "Sportlich, Leicht, Rennsport" (German for "Sport; Light; Racing").

Maybach 62 $385,250
The Maybach 57 and 62 were the first automobile models of the Maybach brand since the brand's revival by DaimlerChrysler. They are derived from the Mercedes-Benz Maybach concept car presented at the 1997 Tokyo Motorshow (which was based on the Mercedes-Benz S-Class sedan). DaimlerChrysler attempted to buy the Rolls-Royce/Bentley marque when Vickers offered the company up for sale.

What is the meaning of good education?

How does one define good education? How much good makes it good? How can you differentiate between good and bad education? And most importantly, why is it important?
Anything that enhances the mental capacity of a person and makes one more liberal had acquired good education. Liberal here means one who is willing to listen to new ideas and accepts them if they are any good. An increase from 1 to 2 is an increase of 100% but an increase from 10 to 11 is an increase of 10%. Although knowledge has no limits and no matter how much one knows, it is always a fraction of the total knowledge in that specific area let alone the universe of knowledge. Raising a person who knows nothing at all to a somewhat easy to achieve and that is what should be the focus on. Creating minds that have the capacity to observe, think and act is very important to make the best out of the population and achieve the highest levels of gross domestic product.

What we have become

When a child is born it learns from its surroundings and the parents and the surroundings of the child define what the child becomes when he grows up. Being a developing company, the norms of the society are changing rapidly and what can be accepted has new boundaries every day. This new era that has come about is very much different from what our elders have experienced. In the new era we are much more growth oriented and more inclined towards the material needs and earning good money.

To achieve these goals that we have set, one would have to work hard and working hard is, well basically, hard. So then there are shortcuts to achieve them. One would have to be less than ethical to use these shortcuts. These shortcuts have made lives more miserable as people are now used to it and don’t want to work more for achieving more. The rising unemployment and inflation has also created people who have nothing to do desperate. Looks as if the society is going into a chaos. But there is time to amend the wrongs of the past. Just depends on who is willing to take responsibility for it.

New age cars

Now days there are hundreds of thousands of car models. Containing form fuel to solar powered ultra sonic super charged engines, where the breed of cars started from steam powered engines, now cars can also run on nitrous gas with a speed of a gunshot. These days the engine capacity can range from 440cc to a massive 8000cc. Today cars can be as expensive as $1,500,000 and they can be as cheap as $2,500. There are hundreds of manufactures in the world who are manufacturing hundreds of millions of cars. Some of then include Audi, smart, bmw VW, Porsche and Mercedes Benz, Isuzu, Mazda, Toyota, Honda, Nissan etc.

Inner Silence

Differences...

te ku kaa'bay de vich peya noor dissay
saaday butt khanay vich huzoor wassay
saa thon nairay te thon door wassay

Lost Control...

Life has betrayed me once again,
I accept some things will never change.
I've let your tiny minds magnify my agony,
and it's left me with a chemical dependency for sanity.
Yes, I am falling... how much longer till I hit the ground?
I can't tell you why I'm breaking down.
Do you wonder why I prefer to be alone?
Have I really lost control?
I'm coming to an end,
I've realised what I could have been.
I can't sleep so I take a breath
and hide behind my bravest mask,
I admit I've lost control.
Lost control.
(lost control by anathema)

Inabilities

Pakistan today is witnessing the worst type of terrorism in its history. With the dawn, every day brings a fresh attack. Even then regulatory bodies cannot do much about it. The inability of government and intelligence agencies is leading us to nowhere. The world is treating us as criminals. Our country has been badly traumatized by brutal suicide bombers, who are mercilessly killing thousands of us. The picture below shows security officers dragging the naked dead-bodies of women and children down the street.
Here's a detail and the original sketch. (This image was n my head from quite a long time)

A brief history

Cars have always been there to help the humans in their long and short journeys, since the early eighteen hundreds the first car was made by Mercedes.
Today hundreds of millions cars are been driven in all over the world. There are more than hundred car companies who are not only manufacturing cars but also different categories of cars for example cars, jeeps, SUVs, sports cars, these cars can be further categorized e.g. There sedans, estate, coupe, convertible and hatchbacks. Then in jeeps there is soft top and hard to, in SUVs there comes closed cabin and open cabin. In sports cars there comes coupe, roadster, convertible and sedan.


Aadil.

I Know My Job Well

I love reflecting my own personal experiences through sketching. Expressing feelings and plethora of thoughts at the same time, reflecting emotions through sketching is not an easy job but I love creating an aura with my art. And I know my job well.

women, style, beauty and glamor

There are a few lifestyle channels operating in Pakistan, Style 360, FTV etc. These channels attempt to promote the attributes of a certain class where style, beauty and glamour are an essential part of lifestyle. These channels attempt to portray a degree of perfection, and the women tend to become an important part of it. In a channel like this, beautiful, tall, sleek and slender women are shown.
Typically, a woman in this channel is portrayed as a symbol of glamour and beauty. It could almost be said that in a channel like this her womanhood is celebrated and exalted more than it ever has been anywhere.
The world shown on fashion channels is very plastic and so is the women associated with it are generally perceived to be. But usually it’s not just the perception of one; they are presented in a manner that is very ‘plastic’. It lacks much depth. She is supposed to look and sound beautiful. Her outward appearance is the main focus, while her sensitive and knowledgeable side is ignored to an extent that it becomes secondary to looks.
On a social level, this portrayal of woman consciously or unconsciously attempts to define certain gender roles for women. Women as opposed to men are to be presented in a beautiful manner, where they are an entity to be seen and applauded. It is imperative on them to look and act beautiful and pretty and to present them in a way that is appealing to its audience.
From a political aspect, it shows women as a powerful presence in the society, who is not only seeking but exercising her right to speak authoritatively yet elegantly. She argues and convinces; and keeps a command on all that surrounds her. Therefore, she presents herself as a true representative of a liberal society. Moreover, the almost perfect scenarios created in this channel, also stimulates a move towards an idealist society. These almost perfect looking women with continuous dreams and aspirations to become even better give birth to a race towards idealism.
How a woman is presented here also has certain other religious/ social implications on the society. It tends to fragment the society into two different groups. One that supports all this glamorous and pompous show of women and the other that prefers to see women behind veils and speaking in a low tone.

Broken road leads to nowhere…………

Mama take this badge off of me, cause i don't think i can wear it any more.
Its getting dark, actually too dark i feel like im knocking on heaven's door.
Mama, put my guns in the ground I can't shoot them anymore.
That long black cloud is comin' down I feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door.
Mama dunt sing those lullaby for me, i dont think i can hear them any more.
They are digging me deep into the ground, feel like im knockin' on heaven's door.
Mama take this pain off of me cause i can't take it anymore.
(Knockin On Heaven's Door)

This is a picture of child who has been killed in an attack. His dreams, his hopes shattered all of a sudden. There was a time, when merrily plays with other children in this street but now his body is lying there, under the debris, blood all around him and pain and agony in his eyes.